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A very cool series of related dreams. Read more... )

It was when I woke up that I realized why everyone kept calling me Deusie. From Ducis.
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Started out at work. One of my young associates was dismantling an old woven ... blanket? tapestry? and preparing the threads - braiding them into different sized ribbons. Another associate was sewing the ribbons onto a backing. They were creating ... recreating ... King Arthur's banner or family shield sort of thing.

Then I was a teenager (not me), high school age, on a field trip with a bunch of others to a college university. We were participating in projects in different fields of study offered by the colleges. My boyfriend had a hobby of exploring abandoned buildings so I wasn't too worried when he didn't show up the first night. Second evening, though, I did begin to worry. By the penultimate day of the visit with no sign of him, I was frantic. Some study had identified the most likely object of his explorations but college authorities refused to do a search ... not because of danger to human life but because human contact/breath/hair/&c might damage the objects stored within - books. I decided to go in and look for him myself - and a bunch of my friends decided to join me with others covering our absence.

At that point my husband woke me up because I had overslept.
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I was a mother of three children, two boys and a girl. The girl was the middle child, one of the boys (Jeff) was very young. I had a husband - sweet, kind, gentle, loving (portrayed in the dream by Bob Newhart). I loved them all very much, but I was suffering from depression. Nothing mattered. I felt nothing. Life was too heavy. Too much. I couldn't handle it.

I abandoned them. I left.

(As the dreamer, I suspect that my dream-self was ...incarcerated? ... in a hospital for treatment, but that's not what I felt in the dream. They knew where I was, my husband definitely did. But I felt the guilt.)

Many years later, I was well enough to visit them. They had turned the home into a half-way house for troubled teenagers. My husband ... didn't really want to talk to me. The three children ... now adults ... showed me around, showing me all that he, and they, had accomplished.

Jeff was a joy. He was the heart of the family. Calm, giving, level-headed. A problem solver and full of cheer.

I had to leave because I was only there on a day-pass.

The next time I came to visit, they told me that Jeff was gone. He'd left a note saying that he was sorry. No ... saying that he felt the sorrow that each of us carried and he couldn't handle it any more. He had committed suicide.

Had he successfully hidden the same disorder that troubled me for all that time?
Had my return been the straw that broke the camel's act?

And where had this dream come from?
How can I dream so vividly the emotions and problems that I don't suffer/feel?

Dream

Nov. 4th, 2023 06:48 am
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There had been a revolution - the AI computer in the school had attained awareness and had taken control.

A rebel alliance was trying to overthrow the revolution - to turn off the computer leader. There were several teams of two or three. One of them contained R2D2 and C3P0 ... one of the freedom fighters, a young tech-savvy woman, kept calling them something like "education providing modules".

The Doctor was sealed in his TARDIS. All of his incarnations present at the same time, arguing with one another and trying to break free. They needed someone on the outside, but they couldn't get through.

We teleported into the school, each team to a separate location. I was with my husband, who had been in charge of the computer before it went rogue.

The halls were in ruins, the walls tumbling down. Some sentries approached, we hid. To our great surprise, the mobile unit of the Master Computer was with the sentries. He *knew* my husband was coming, wanted to capture him personally. He looked right at him in our hiding place and didn't see either of us.

We managed to get to the gathering spot, only to discover that all of our teams had been captured and were wearing the slave collars that controlled their thoughts. The tech-savvy female injected both droids with strings of random numbers to disrupt their ability to reason. The Master Computer was sitting down on his throne ... assuming his more powerful sessile construction - it looked like a transformer with several faces indicating the many functions it was controlling. The last face on the row, the smallest one, was that of my husband.

The one gleam of hope was the Doctor, and he was managing to contact a young girl thinking that it was me but she had no idea what was going on. The Master Computer had blocked all memory of the Doctor on those wearing the slave collars, so there was no one to tell the children who he was.

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I suspect that the dream was triggered by the recent infestation of AI art into one of the facebook groups I subscribe to combined with some thoughts I've been having about the meaning of an old Gaelic story about a woman who calls on her Good Neighbours for help and ends up being overwhelmed by them.
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Growing up, the accepted wisdom among my peers was that if you died in your dream, you would die in your sleep without waking.

To the best of my knowledge, I have twice died in a dream, each time my ghost rose up; once to investigate my murder and the second time to prevent my husband from being murdered.

This morning, I began the dream as a ghost, investigating a corrupt businessman whom I *think* had murdered me. There was an elderly lady helping me. She snuck into the businessman's office and obtained some crucial evidence, but he came in unexpectedly and she didn't hide all that well. She ran for it, he tried to take off after her, but I delayed him with some poltergeist activity.

When I caught her up, I found her lifeless body lying on the ground. Heart gave out. Her spirit was nearby, in conversation with another ghost - one dressed like a salewoman at the department store we were in. She'd been dead for a while and had some tricks to appearing to be alive which she taught us. One of them enabled the older woman (she looked about 20 years younger, btw) to pick up her pink purse with the evidence in it. We still had to get that evidence away from the businessman. The plan was to lock it up in her car which we hoped would be investigated when her body was found.

We ended up in the lingerie department, pretending to be alive and trying different things. He went right by us without even looking ... probably because the saleswoman tried to get his opinion on something. (The older lady and I were turned away because he might have recognized us.)
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In my dream this morning, I was doing data entry for a high-tech company. It was a clean, modern campus; cafeteria in a separate building; exercise room. Lots of space and light. The particular project I was working on was finishing up.

I got an email reminding me to clock out by 5 ... at 5:30. I quickly finished up and left my cubicle ... and in the way of dreams found no cognitive dissonance to step out into a forest. But I had forgotten to actually clock out. So I immediately turned around to do so and the office I'd just left was gone.

Worried now because I was remembering things from earlier in the dream, I managed to get home (my bike was missing - no surprise because the entire building/campus was an untouched forest), and contacted the boss.

The dream cut to the boss talking to someone about it and he mentioned the causality geese, which ...once the project was done and the data saved, it would return things to what they had been before and "edit" the memories of those involved. Because I hadn't clocked out, the effect of the causality geese hadn't affected me.
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I've been learning bookkeeping for the past month and a half. As a result, I've been having dreams where I'm trying to read the reports and put the information in the proper spots but because it's a dream, I can't read the reports and when I do I can't remember what I read.

It amuses me that my sleeping mind will take a look at the unreadable pile of papers and declare (literally) "I don't have to do this. I'm asleep and at home."

In my sleep, while dreaming, I announce I'm dreaming and I walk away from the frustration dream brought on by fear of failure.

This morning, I had another bookkeeping dream. In this one, I was able to put the reports in correctly and prepare the deposits for pick-up. No problem. Well, except for some technical difficulties. My computer mouse wasn't working properly.

The difference was that I wasn't me and the bookkeeping wasn't for the store. Instead, I was doing bookkeeping for a small pack of hyena shape-shifters and ... I think I was one of them. Maybe.

I suspect that my dreaming mind let the dream go because (1) it was amused and interested in the situation and (2) I wasn't getting bogged down with fear about the order of the work. I mean, I was accomplishing what I was trying to do despite the technical difficulties. And if you've read Ilona Andrews series about Kate Daniels, then you know that tech difficulties are a huge part of her world building.
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Had one of those hidden rooms dreams.

I was working at a daycare - new hire - and there was a hallway with a couple of rooms that was blocked from access. The doors to the hallway were standard school issue; the kind with thin, tall windows with wire on half of the upper half of the door. The more obvious door had the window covered, so you couldn't look in.

I was told that there was some issue with the rooms on that hallway, some sort of dangerous contamination, but we were very crowded so I was curious. Then some official showed up to inspect the hall and rooms. I escorted him to the office to talk to the director. On my way out, I happened to pass by a second door into the hall. To my surprise and dismay, I saw someone ... several someones ... at the door, slamming on it in desperation to get out. I tried to open it, but it was locked and one of my co-workers pulled me away. I cried out that there was someone inside, that they had to get out. I was told that there was no one there, I was imagining it. And, in truth, while I had seen them banging on the door, I hadn't heard anything. Plus, they had looked ... pale and insubstantial. Spectral, with open sores and staring eyes.

Kind of dead, in fact.

But they were dressed like young education professionals, the way we were instructed to dress at the facility.

I was creeped out.

annoyed

May. 31st, 2023 06:18 am
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I'm bugged with myself. There was a phrase that my dreaming mind came up with that I wanted to remember waking so I could find out what it meant ... in another language. But just at the end of the dream, I went looking for something in a book called The girl who put herself between her sister and Faerie which in the dream was about the Tam Lin storm of Jenny of Stuart Hall who stole her lover back from the Queen of Faerie. As a result, I brought the name of that book out of the dream and not the phrase that had been bugging me.

Cool name for a book, though.
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Second try, first one the program crashed as I was saving.

I have dreamt of a team of ghost-hunters for years, probably triggered by the BBC show, Sea of Souls. Or else by a Canadian show that's even older (Beyond Reality 1991).

The format is always the same, the leader is an older male academic - late 50s, early 60s. There are a couple or three junior academics, some students - graduate and undergraduate, and civilian consultants/ talents. I am usually a student and a talent. Rarely am I a civilian consultant/ talent. But always a talent.

This time I was a strong medium.

the story )

And I woke up.
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working to get refugee kids settled in a new school. One boy, 4th grader, was upset that the school didn't offer Latin. I offered to help him continue to learn it, but of course he wanted the grades. Spanish was suggested as a viable alternative (in my experience, it is NOT an emotionally acceptable one). He seemed to reluctantly agree, but then decided to take me up on my offer as well.

School day ends, I meet up with a group of others because we need to find someplace to stay as well. There's a Stephen Strange (comic book, not cumberbatch) type wizard, two rough looking men, two women -one big, one little, and me. The wizard leads us to a barn/shed looking place - double doors in the front and another couple of doors further back, high windows in a row ceiling high. Looks like one room but I think there's a loft area. Almost immediately another group shows up, contesting our occupation of the space.

The wizard slams the door closed, takes out chalk and at this point, I'm the wizard and I'm running through runes of protection but I can't remember any. Doesn't matter because my dream self draws simple crosses on the doors to bar the way. Then breaks the chalk in half and throws it to the two men who are now in were-wolf ... halfman/halfwolf ... form. Orders them to draw crosses on the the other two doors.

Then I take up my staff and turn around, the left hand door is off, a man in a black overcoat and black fedora stands there, holding his staff. We stand there for several minutes, pushing at each other with magic attacks and defenses, then I do a Gandalf-like rise and slam with the staff and physically push the other wizard away. The world goes dark for a moment and when the light comes back, the would-be intruders are gone.

After that, we set about making the shed/barn habitable and my overmind remembers its supposed to check the time. The clock reads 3:05, I've overslept 20 minutes, so I get up.
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The ship's name was Helena. She was a smart ship, intelligent and sapient, with a complex neural net. Unfortunately, she was insane.

We didn't know it when we boarded. Not immediately, at least. One of the physicists recognized the name once we were on board and balked. I remember his response. "The Helena? The one with the malfunctioning neural net? We can't ... " But by then it was too late. The University was under attack; we had to evacuate and ... she was already underway. With a cargo of academic types; scientists, mathematicians, some liberal arts types - doctors, researchers, professors, a few assistants. And Boots the cat.

The first incidents were minor. Could have been accidents or mistakes. A door that wasn't there one day but was the next. Or that led somewhere else. Somewhere dangerous. A release of gas that caused euphoria or put us all to sleep.

One of the assistants got into the habit of using a chute to get between levels. For speed. He liked to sleep late and cut it fine. Oh I wish I hadn't written it like that. The last time he jumped into the chute, it took him down into waste disposal. It took us a while to find out what had happened.

That could still have been an accident but what she did to Boots the cat ... was not an accident. She owned up to it proudly. Boots the cat was a mouser and the Helena was infested with rodents of all sorts. Boots the cat proudly brought his kills to his owner who made much of him.

She tortured him over several hours and left him for the rats to finish off then presented her "kill" with a flourish.

The worst of it was, she wouldn't let us go. She sealed us in whenever she made planetfall so we couldn't escape. Her rationale was that we had been given to her to protect and she was going to protect us whether we wanted her to or not, from everything and anything. Except herself.
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I have today off, so I stayed up late last night stringing a necklace. Consequently, I slept late this morning. And I had a dream during the time that I would normally be up writing Trouble on Candlepin.

I dreamt I was a Borderlander in Mortalrie, working with a group of Mortals to discover who or what was attempting to open a rift in the Border from this side. We were working out of a small house being used as a business. I guess I was working as ... what is it called? Spiritual advisor? Anyway, I had clients for whom I was using my divination talent to assist but I was also checking them for any "whiff" of Border energy or magical ability.

Among our group was an ex-lover, Jacobus Zephyrus ... that was his name, because I couldn't remember the name Severus Snape. How could I have imported Snape into a dream and not remembered his name? He was dour, disapproving, superior, sarcastic, insulting ... and not precisely welcome but so powerful I couldn't reasonably refuse his help or force him to go away.

One woman carried contact traces of such energy, as if she'd been with someone involved in opening the rift. During the course of our session, I performed a summoning to call the source of the contact trace to us. He came and it was her son. A 20-something black man with street cred, tattoos and attitude. Dangerous attitude that was threatening. I yelled for "Jacob". He popped in and ...

Either the dream changed or I woke up. Probably the latter.
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I'm at my high school graduation and my boyfriend and best friend tell me that they are now a couple. I'm furious and walk away, looking for somewhere else to sit for the ceremony because I don't want to be around them. One guy offers me a seat next to him but it's already "taken" and the next seats are wet for some reason. I'm about to sit on the driest of them when I spot a large Arabic-looking swirl in golden flame over a side hall. I go down it and find an Middle-eastern looking man sweeping up in a large empty space. I ask him what the letter meant, but he insists that there was no letter. He's obviously trying to get rid of me, so I turn to go back to the graduation ceremony. As I do, he gets an odd, considering expression on his face (my "overmind" knows that the glowing letter was put there by a djinn and that the man knows it as well) ... and the dream shifts suddenly to me opening my eyes to bright natural light.

There's a young European-American male looking down at me with an expression of concern - dirty-blonde well-cut hair, tee-shirt filled out very nicely, jeans ("Andy" from the show WKRP in Cincinnati). I am in an old gas station converted to a day care and he's the care-taker. The kids are all ages from very young to barely teen. One little boy almost breaks my heart. He's about four or so, Downs syndrome, and he's fascinated by the toy jewelry. He picks up a bracelet and puts it on. Looks at it, then with tears in his eyes, he takes it off again saying "No no no". He does the same with other pieces of jewelry.

I'm not too upset about the change in circumstances because (1) I'm still upset about my boyfriend jilting me for my best friend and (2) the guy is way cute and seems interested in me. I start helping and bonding with the kids.

At one point, I go out of the building and look around. There's an old trailer home off to one side, covered with kudzu, sealed up with some plastic - with a warning sign "Warning: Sheriff Black", it's either on the trailer or as an open captioning for the show because at this point "I" am being played by Amy Schumer. I pull the plastic off the door ... and fall into a ditch as a result. While I am in the ditch, the door opens and a figure shaped like Jackie Gleason as Sheriff Buford T. Justice exits the trailer home. Shaped like because his face and parts of his body are obscured with black tar-like substance. "Sheriff Black"

At this point, I am definitely watching a show because one of the children from the day care is sitting beside me and he's a little scared of Sheriff Black. I hug him and point to Amy Schumer, struggling to get out of the ditch.

"If this were really down in the South," I say, "She'd been covered with poison ivy." He giggles and I'm back in the middle of the action, being told what the crops were around the converted gas station.

I hear a news report about my absence and find out that my family is very upset over my disappearance, so I call them then hike out to meet up with my mother and aunt coming to pick me up. I am afraid that if I'm found at the day care, they would suffer because ... there's some sort of secrecy about it all, that the kids would suffer if the authorities find them.

But I feel like I'm abandoning them. And then there's that really cute guy.

I meet up with my relatives, they're going to take me home, but I have to say goodbye so I call the gas station. I talk to the cute guy, explaining and he convinces me to stay where I am and he'll come get me. It's a split screen at this point, with Amy Schumer on one side and the cute guy on the other. At one point during the conversation, however, he peeks over the dividing line and gives me a wink.
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Lots of things lost in the confusion but two things I recall ...

I was a mermaid and something frightened me so much that I lost all sense of direction and ended up wrong way down on the top of the water and was drowning in air ... unable to right myself and swim to the bottom.

I was at work and a customer was contesting the cost of something. I checked several times and the system was correct. He pulled out a written list of prices from his wallet to show me my error and I was about to tell him to take it to customer service, they were open when he grabbed my wrist and said "Perhaps your mind is addled by your minimum wage job so look again." I tried to yell to Amanda and Dylan to come help but ... sleep paralysis kept me quiet.
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I crashed after work today and dreamt of just after moving into an old house. I kept seeing a couple of young cats ... adolescents, not kittens ... playing in the autumn leaves of the yard. My husband never saw them. They were the colours of the leaves - brown and cream and a touch of orange, with furry pantaloons and fluffy cheeks. Great big surprised eyes.

Sometimes I saw a girl and an older, mother, cat with the two.

Then in the dream, I saw one ... named Pennypacker ... on the stoop outside the back door. I quickly opened the door, keeping my eye on the cat, but when the door was open, the cat was gone. Disappeared into thin air.
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This was a ghost-squad dream.

We were trying to determine the origin & meaning of some magic medallions, round disks ...clay or wood? ... with figures on them that my sleeping mind recognized as from the zodiac but my waking mind does not.

We were at a very large, very old-looking research library. Lots of unnecessary decorations, heavily carved shelves, stone walls. It may have been in a college, but the people running the library wore monks robes. Some of the unnecessary decorative touches were depictions of the medallions.

We discovered a vault under the library that held a large stone altar, around the top were the mysterious medallions ... and more that my character did not recognize, that did not belong to the zodiac figures of the dream. What I remember are a dragon/ reptile, a warrior in an animal skin, a tree like Yggsdrasil.

Leaving the library one evening, we encountered a large number of people leaving an athletic game ... football probably. One man, surrounded by several sons and holding one toddler-sized little girl by the hand, speaking in a heavy Louisiana accent, asked me what I thought of a nearby college. I responded with something innocuous because I didn't know much about it. He replied "The Gators are a real good team. Real good." As he walked away, I noticed something green snaking out from under the little girl's dress ... an alligator tail. That made me look at the boys and their father and I could tell that they had more in the backs of their pants that normal.

We headed for the college town he mentioned and found ... well, I'm not quite sure what we found but that man's family had been cursed with alligator tails at that place long ago. Somehow the church had obtained the altar ...probably had broken up the coven. I had a vision of the little girl on the altar while we tried to the remove the curse from her ... and only her?

I'm thinking that my sleeping mind planned that the family felt that the alligator tails were fine for the men in the family but that this was the first girl in a long while and the father wanted to give her as much of a chance at a "normal life" as he could.
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I was a woman and a mother - not sure how old my kids, young but not too young ... independent but not teenagers. A woman asked me to watch over her three boys - Tyler, Ben and ... I can't remember the name of the youngest; he was terrified of me and was mostly hiding. Tyler was the eldest - about 5 or 6, also the most active and actively naughty - always getting into what he shouldn't. Ben was a middle-child, quiet, thoughtful, caring... obviously wondering why his mother left them with me. He was the one distracting and watching out for the youngest.

The youngest was terrified of me because I had threatened Tyler extravagantly in an attempt to get him to behave.

I tried to put them into a wrought-iron pram (one big enough for all three to fit in easily) but Tyler worked out how to collapse the thing so they could get out. So I invited a lot of neighbours with children to join us for a party in a garden-house - typical dream/Faerie construction combining indoor and outdoor features. Grassy floors, trees, open roof but also rooms with doors and furniture. Tyler was running around, leading a pack of age-mates; Ben was in the middle of the younger children with his youngest brother - mostly.

During the party, I took my mother - a blacksmith - to look at the collapsed wrought-iron stroller, which was in one of the inside rooms of the garden-house. She said that she knew I was strong as a swordswoman but solid iron prams were not at all practical and no one was strong enough for one. She said I should use it as a decorative planter. When I persisted, she said she'd do what she could to fix it. At that point, someone came running to tell me that there was a storm blowing in.

It was not a natural storm. I bundled the party up - taking care to collect the three boys with me - and took them across the street to my more normal house. Some of the neighbours went home. Once I got them settled, I went down into the kitchen and found a Death Spectre in one corner. I banished it, then went around to all the corners and walls of the house, bottom to top, renewing the seals and wards. When I got to the front foyer, I found that my younger sister had the front door wide open, looking to buy prisms for a street saleswoman. I ran the saleswoman out - she claimed she had the perfect one for me but when she showed it to me, I saw that the centre had been hollowed out and something added ... making it useless as a prism and somehow dangerous. I refused.

At that point, the front doors of the garden-house across the street blew open. I glared at them, raised my voice and loudly proclaimed "You'll shut those doors and lock them if you know what's good for you." The doors slammed shut again; the saleswoman stared at me with open-mouth shock. I raised my voice again. "And lock them!" I emphasized. There was a loud click and the saleswoman scuttled away to her van and gunned it.

Then I woke up.

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Analysis

Thinking about this dream without the matter-of-fact acceptance of dream-logic and the "everyone knows" knowledge of dream characters.

Iron is protection from fae. The fact that I tried to put the three boys into an open iron-work wheeled conveyance implies that I was protecting them from some Otherworldly threat - especially since I was apparently a swordswoman of some repute.

The pram in question was based on the memory of a wicker-work pram that my mother got from her oldest sister when I was ten or so. It was large enough for three of us to sit in. We would decorate it as a parade float and the older kids would push it around ... until it fell apart.

When I banished the death-spectre from the house, I understood that I had some power over spirits of that kind, that Death had touched me to guard the interface between Death and Life. Those were the seals and wards that I was checking on and renewing. The flawed prism the saleswoman tried to charm me into buying would have weakened the protections on the house.

I suspect that the youngest was terrified of me because he could clearly see the spirits and spectres that existed in the Borderland of the dream - but I don't think he was the specific target of the threat. I think that the spectres were after Ben. Ben remained in the middle of crowds throughout the dream - Tyler was running about getting into trouble and the youngest kept hiding in out of way places when he wasn't with Ben. Both of them would have been easily taken at any point.

My dream mother was a cross between Meg Langslow (a blacksmith) and her mother (a society hostess).
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Didn't sleep well last night. Kept dreaming that I was at work but I was in bed asleep at the same time so I would try ringing items up and get frustrated because I wasn't at my register and couldn't get the things in bags.

Then the manager of the store called me and I couldn't understand a word he said on the phone.

I worry about answering the phone.
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Catholic elementary school

Two girls on the playground at recess see the new girl in a corner crying and go over to her. They invite her to play with them. When the bell rings at the end of recess they are some distance away, over the salt pond and won't get back in time. The leader of the three takes the hands of the other two, tells them to close their eyes and imagine that they are very fast.

The new girl exclaims "I'm imagining that I have a jetpack on my back."
The other girl echoes this idea.
The three girls take off flying, zoom over the salt pond, across the playground, up the stairs, into the school and down the hall where a nun stops them and gives them detention for flying the in the hallways.

It was very different from flying in previous dreams. In those, I could feel the wind beneath my arms, feel it lifting me. I couldn't go very fast and I had to go where the wind blew.

This was propelled flight, with a push from the back and in control of direction and speed.

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